Need ur advice on a personal crisis?

Hi,

im turning soon need some advice

See, i belongs from very tradtional middle class family, can say lower middle class family during prep i deal with lots of trauma and stuff i can't mention cause im insecure abt it. i studied hard and got a tier 1 engg. college with my branch having a 16-19lpa avg.
I want to start my deep tech hardware startup, it's in very intial phase.
The problem that my father is very controlling and since he's so old school i sometime feel i have to marry to her choice woman, even when i imagine future i see him watching me. because of this i feel constant anxiety of being judged by him. i think i can't take desicion on my own i feel like i have ask him for everything.
Like i first time i shaved my beard, i didnt tell him. When he saw me he asked when i shaved, and asked me so much and made a very annoying face.
He could have just told me it's lookind good or bad. He's so controlling.
He fight my mum so much like he verbal abuses too.

Because of all of this environment talking to girls feels bad to me. taking my own desicion feels impossible to me.
Whem i imagine myself married, it feels like i have to ask him for everything, the clothes she wares, if she can work or not(which should be her desicion), when we want to have kids and everything.
my parents married life is fcuked up still, he gives advices to everyone.

when i talk to my ppl more he says"padhi me dhyaan lagao" cause of this i don't talk to ppl and my relative so, when ppl ask why he doesn't talk he says "aare aise hi iska mann nhi krta".

belive me there's so much i want tell but, i dont want to waste ur time.

I don't want to do waste my life or make bad for my wife.

I saw him hurting my mum so much like so much i dont want my wife to feel the same
I respect my father but, i not want to be like him.