why is it ugly when i do it but its hot for the girls on screen?

it sucks so fucking bad i spent hours bleaching and coloring my hair hot pink because ive always wanted it and i figured it was okay because its not blue (which he hates)

but i do it and i get hit with 'i mean it doesn't look bad i just dont like pink or blonde hair'

but his type is white blonde women, but when I DYE MY HAIR ANY COLOR BESIDES BLACK ITS 'it looks ok' I DONT UNDERSTAND IT SUCKS SO BAD

i feel so ugly and like stupid because the women he likes can do it but i need dark hair and dark colors

why is it like this