Prayer Request for faith and trust

I'm struggling to trust God with something... having a hard time walking by faith not by sight. Please pray that I can get a word in season today. I've been exposed to ALOT of different false teachings that I foolishly imbibed because i thought if they were super harsh and mean they had to be true. I didn't think anyone would be that blunt and calloused unless it was biblical... naivete, and I wanted to do what was biblical... should've just read the bible alone! My view of God has been a little warped now... its 100 my fault not God's. Please pray I can trust him. I do believe, help thou mine unbelief.