where can I find anything resembling ADHD meds or antidepressants

I’m diagnosed with ADHD but my doctor doesn’t want to give me medication because she says “I should not pick the easy way”. I want to play video games, I want to go out I want to watch movies, can someone tell me anything I can buy from the pharmacy myself? I want to be so much more, I know I can, but my mind will not let me do anything for more than 5 seconds. I’m tired of people telling me “just go out and eat better and go to the gym” I CANT DO ALL THAT STUFF I CANT I CANT