Heartbroken

So my ex broke up with me early Feb. Nothing to do with me. She just had so much things going on in her life that she couldn’t give to the relationship or anything to her friends. (Stress, uni finals, faith, finding a new job).

She said she still very much has love for me and that I was perfect in my own way and that we can remain friends.

We were both in love. We FaceTimed daily, gamed together, watched movies together etc.

I’m 34m and this is the first time in my life I’ve ever felt loved. I’ve only had two relationships in my life. One in 2011 which lasted 3 months. And this one August 2025 - 5th Feb 2026.

I’m not confident and have always had low self esteem. I was bullied a lot in school.

I’m also not good looking so this breakup is hitting me hard.

I’m not mad at her at all as mental health is not something to take lightly.

I feel like I’m just destined to die alone. I’m never going to find anyone who has made me feel so loved or appreciated the way she made me feel.

I miss her so much and I don’t want to let her go.

She’s trying to erase me and all the good times we had so she can heal her mindset.

Was I too much for her? Did I do something wrong? I was always there for her, always giving her support where she needed it as she did me.

Now I’ve lost her forever even as a friend 😭 and it hurts.

I finally had something amazing in my sad life and it’s now gone.

Anyway if you read this. Thanks for reading.