Anyone in here a parent?

Just looking for some support. I haven’t relapsed in a long time, probably been a year now. Idk, i don’t keep track. But i have a 1.5 year old child. Struggling with this addiction is so much harder and the guilt and shame hits so much deeper than it ever once did when you have a baby in your care. I fight with urges everyday. Some days worse than others. Today being one of those days. Just looking for people in a similar place as me. Thanks.