Happy anniversary.

I can't remember the me before you. I listened to the song you sent me that goes "As you were, carry on, as if I never came along". How can I even do that when every single thing in my life reminds me of you? Our lives have intertwined completely. We have loved wholly, fully, completely, for 10 years, until we realized that love alone is not enough. And that's what hurts the most. I love you. But love alone is not enough. I know it was my decision to end things, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. It is almost too much for me how much everything about you lingers in my life and my memories; the touch of your skin, the warmth of your breath againt my neck as we embrace, the sound of your laughter, and the sound of your crying when we broke up. That last one breaks me. It unravels me, and I almost could not hold things together.

Sorry I couldn't be the whole world for you. Sorry I couldn't give you forever. Sorry I couln't give you my promise of Always.

I love you, Chesca. So much.

I leave you with our favorite song.

🎶Look at you go

I just adore you

I wish that I knew

What makes you think I'm so special🎶