I'm an atheistic agnostic christian. (I think?)

Do I think God exists? No. Do I mind if he exists? No. Do I know that I dont know and that he could possibly exists? Yes. I don't hate God. I dont hate the Christian god. With a god from anothee big abrachamic religiom I was raised in and then I left, there we have a complicated relationship but not here in Christianity. I'm also a mahayana Buddhist kinda, and I am also pagan kinda, and also taoist kinda. I'm just a mural of everything and almost every big religion/belief. I am also an animist. I know a lot of this is prohibited by Christianity, and non believers are looked down on, but like I've been reading the bible and I just kinda like it. Jesus was a good guy as far as I read, I loved when he protected that woman from being stoned, god was also nice had some crashouts but we all do, and Christianity just seems like a comforting place for me even tho i know non believers are looked down on. Is it bad if i sometimes pray to the christian god? I mean whatever u guys say ill do it either way but idk I just kinda wanted to say this to someone. I like Christianity there is some things i dislike but i just dont engage in them idk, i choose to see the beauty in it. That's all. Please dont attack me i know some people here are conservative because if u attack me im sensitive and i will cry.