Recently diagnosed

Hi, I am 22 and throughout my life i’ve been diagnosed with various depression and trauma disorders (mdd, pdd,ptsd) and have been thru different ssri’s but i was not liking them. I decided to do like an extensive testing thing that was 4 hours total and during the feedback session i was told bipolar 2. I have been looking through the internet trying to find some advice but honestly if anything i’ve just been getting more scared. I am meeting with the psychiatrist this coming week and i think getting on mood stabilizers but just going through all the ssri’s has killed me i hate all the side effects and constantly switching, are mood stabilizers any better? Is there anything you wish someone would have told u when you first got diagnosed? Sorry if i rambled, i still haven’t fully gotten my thoughts together about all of this.