Craving for someone but fate's not letting me find one. Reality?

Hi, M22 here. NGSB me, so it's hard for me to decide to find someone or not because sometimes I crave for a relationship and and sometimes I'm happy being single HAHAH, maybe I became numb and happy in my own safety bubble space without relying on someone to begin with, but it's nice to have someone to be by your side, in up or downs and in failure and in success.

Maybe I should focus on myself In order to be ready for someone muna than find someone who is unsure if she will/will be not my first love?