How should i approach her? Icjdjei

I've been talking to someone lately online, I do like her personality, the way she express herself very coherent really interest me plus I find her cute and attractive. We somehow vibe (i think) and been like that for weeks, Until we're not, I sometimes said things that upset her but for me it's not a big deal. We are both busy doing things in life so i decided to stop and tell her that we should focus on our own life because i feel like i was the problem and needs to be a better man before pursuing someone, she agree as well but we dont block each other. i really felt something special tto her. Ff Im still in my shit phase right now, I missed her but too coward to message her bc i feel guilty about my current situation, i wanna talk to her badly and share about my struggles and whereabouts but too embarrassed at the same time, bc I've been like this for months now. Just want her to know I still care about her, im stuck in lurking about her whereabouts just to know she's doing good, and yes she did. I do have plans to go to her place to meet her whenever my situation gets better.

I know that this is a cliche, but most men believe that we dont deserve to talk or pursue someone cuz we broke asf. I hope i can get back on my feet asap so that i'll have the courage to talk to her again.

TLDR: i cant summarize, pls take time to read. Thank you.