Why am I getting fatter?

I’ve (FtM26) recently tried yet again to work out from home, mostly lifting weights and walking, as I’ve been stuck with a body that is apparently called “skinny fat” for years it seems. Maybe relevant but I am on hormones from transitioning (have been on them for 8 years). All my efforts to get rid of my fat have been in vain. I am now 64.4 kg at 177cm and have worked out for months before in the past, but I always stopped because of what is happening yet again: I get fatter.

I have ADHD and fluctuation on the scale is very hard for me, I’m hyperaware of my body and I can pretty much tell immediately when I seem bloated. I want to keep the scale as low as possible, but ever since I started training again,y weight just went up by two kilograms and that has sent me in an immediate panic. I might be exaggerating but in my head it feels catastrophic.

I exercise with progressive overload and I started at the lowest weights. I usually do 5 days a week for around 20-30 minutes.

I’m tracking my calories and eat little throughout the day, my biggest meal being dinner. I eat fruit and veggies daily. Protein is in all my meals. I don’t or at least barely eat or drink anything with high sugar anymore. I don’t drink alcohol or smoke. My eating habits have been consistent since working out again, but seeing myself look ‘fatter’ is making me want to just give it all up. Again. It might be water retention, but it seems to stick. I genuinely don’t know what do now — I feel so stuck with the way my body is but efforts to change it only seem to make it worse. What to do? Is something wrong with my body?