I went out in public for the first time!!!

Hi girls!! I just wanted to share some amazing news that none of you asked for!! ☺️ I left my house in femme and went out into the public to run some errands for the first time ever!!!!

It was a boring Saturday morning, so I took a shower. then I practiced styling my hair, I'm starting to get it to look really good, even with my insane Irish curls. I was so proud of myself, so I decided to practice more with makeup and that turned out fabulous as well!! I looked so good in the mirror I was dying to leave the house!!! Which is really unlike me, so I said fuck it!! My sister even loaned me her peacoat, so I paired it up with a nice scarf, and omg did I feel like just the most fabulous girl in the universe!! I had intense butterflies in my tummy from looking at my outfit and myself in the mirror!

I freaking walked out of the house, full femme, makeup, and hair done with the sun beaming on my face for what felt like the first time ever! It was such a gorgeous day on Saturday in my area. Drove with the windows down to my grocery store, picked up food for dinner and lunch for the week, and omg I was so fucking nervous, walking past everyone in the store on a busy Saturday afternoon, but I was hyper focused on shopping for food, I refused to look anyone in the eye, I think this helped my nerves a little. Some guy was trying to awkwardly explain to me he's trying to get around me to get the soda, idk if it was because he's just awkward or he was taken aback from my appearance, but he did sound weird about asking me to move. Anyway, one self checkout later, I'm walking out with my groceries!!

But it didn't stop there!!! I had such a rush that I felt wrong doing all this for a 40 minute shopping trip, so I decided to treat myself and go to my favorite music store to buy some used movies and CDs! I scored such a great haul. Went to the counter to check out, the woman there was nice and didn't make any comments or reactions to me, I felt normal, as I alway have felt whenever I came here. 2 missions accomplished!!

I tried returning my sisters coat to her, but she refused and told me keep it because she was so happy that I wore it really well!!!! I was in tears! That was my Saturday! I did happen to make myself an amazing salmon dinner and finally popped that kink in my back I've been suffering all week from. An amazing, amazing day I've had, I could not be more confident and excited for my future!!!!! I didn't think I'd ever get to this point, but I finally cleared a HUGE social milestone for myself.

For context, my egg cracked a year and half ago, and have been on HRT for only 8 months. I still have a ways to go, but damn it does this victory feel so good right now.