So trapped by needing an income

I wish I could know what life could be like if I wasnt overstimulated all the time. Ive tried different jobs and I always reach a breaking point. I am in therapy, I am medicated, but also I'm still breaking all the time and always either at or near the end of my rope. I really wish I knew what it felt like to not be overwhelmed 24/7, ive been in some flavor of autistic burnout for over a decade. Sorry for the vent I just need to put it somewhere where I can be understood and not be thought of as lazy or childish or dramatic