Watching BL freely after my ex made me delete insta.

It might sound weird but hear me out. Hii I'm 23f. I used to watch thai, japanese BL back in 2021 and used to follow a lot of thai actors accounts. Later in 2023 I started dating this guy. I feel I made a lot of mistakes and compared him with these idols also and made him insecure. He was already insecure of my other ex and felt i cheated on him although I never did. I was stupid and very toxic but once i understood i apologized and never did that again. I tried everything to repair and blamed myself for everything but my ex turn out to be extremely crazy, obsessive and toxic.

In 2024 ending I was raped by my him and later he threatened to hurt me and my family if I left him..

I tried ending my life but I stopped as I was saved by my family and bestfriend.

I couldn't use insta much during the time of our relationship as he had a problem bcs boys will DM me even when I never flirted back and later I have to delete insta as he was stalking me after I ended things. Now I'm doing an exhausting job but atleast that mf is away and today when I again followed accounts of ohm , nanon , tawan etc I felt strange and amazing.

I was no longer restricted to do so. I was no longer threatened by someone if I do that. I was safe and all that matters now.

Thankyou for reading everyone 🩷❤️ Just wanted to share.