How to be feminine without makeup, nails, lashes, dresses, or other “forced symbols” of femininity?

It just feels like being a women is too performative, and all I can wear is hoodie, because I’m not feminine enough to be a woman.

But men can just exist, and they are men.

I feel so disgusting, being a non/woman female(I’m not non-binary or trans or anything), I want to be a girl/woman, be cute and feminine, but what does it even mean?