i dont want to be here anymore

here is js everywhere at this point

all i could think of the past few months is disappearing

i have neither the will nor confidence to confront anyone or anything

im sick of feeling like an anomaly, like ill never be enough, and the space i take up suffocates everyone

im sick of feeling rightfully guilty and ashamed and still not changing for the better

im so sick of being rejected, of being sensitive

im tired of keeping everything to myself bc nothing good comes out of it ultimately

all i am in essence is a selfish coward and prick

i dont have anything to look forward to anymore

i think i still want to keep living, but it feels like a stupid terrible painful idea