How do I survive the next few days?

I’m going to a large fetish event (Darklands), but since the past weekend, my brain has been going in circles making me feel shit about myself, specifically about how attractive or unattractive I am.

Reference, I am really short (5’2”), somewhat muscular, hairy and have a belly. I’m also brown (of South Asian descent). Baby bear (but not attractive enough for the bear community). Sexually, I’m more dominant, rough and more top than bottom (most men don’t know how to top), but I am little below average.

It’s probably the worse time for this to happen.l know at this event, like all others have a stereotype and gay men at large are shallow. I do not fit the mould of anyone there. Finding a PoC leatherman in Europe is difficult enough. How do I survive the next week without hiding myself in my room? I’m basically going to be in a meat market and I feel like chopped liver. Any coping strategies I can use?