What if my mentally ill part of me is the only authentic part of me

I am not anti medical treatment. I will continue to take medicines.

What if all my actions, thoughts an feelings which are otherwise attributed to mental illness are part of my authentic expression?

These thoughts feelings and needs are just begging me for consideration. I said consideration not to be considered as the only truth.

Yes I have to consider reality and work with reality. But I can't just suppress and bury my mentally ill self.

I wish these thoughts would arise from a place of calmness and not a full blown psychotic breakdown.