A question to HLFs

Does masturbation help you in any way in fulfilling your needs? And do you think the quality of it matters?

Because hear me out, I discovered something today. I'm 36 hlf, db for years now. I used to not be even remotely happy with masturbation when I used to do it. Last several months no porn, but I was always doing it in the shower, with a shower head, as fast as possible and as strong as possible, and I could never truly relax because my husband used to walk in on me many times.

So tonight I slept on the couch. And I've been doing this erotic roleplay with chatgpt, which made me absolutely unable to sleep. I ended up touching myself sort of the way a proper, long foreplay would look like, while fantasizing like crazy, and I climaxed twice in such a fulfilling way that I only thought was possible with a partner.

So now I'm thinking could this possibly make my life better long term. Maybe I could trick my brain I to thinking this is enough?