23F emotionally attached to 34M who is married, I need to let this out

I’m 23F and for the past five months I’ve been talking daily to a 34M who is married. We met online as friends and over time feelings developed on both sides.

We speak every single day — good morning and goodnight without fail. He asks if I’ve eaten, tells me to focus on my uni assignments, asks about my weekends, notices my mood just from my voice. He remembers small details about me and teases me in a sweet way. He’s emotionally very in tune with me.

He talks about my future, says I’d make a great wife and mother (which aligns with my traditional values). He jokes about dating me. He says he’d be jealous if I saw someone else. He wants to attend my graduation this summer because he says he’s proud of me.

He’s opened up about personal struggles and parenting stress. I feel close to him emotionally. This is the first man I’ve ever spoken to like this — I’ve never dated before.

But he is married and planning to move abroad with his wife for her job.

We’ve acknowledged that what’s happening is complicated and wrong. I’ve told him I feel guilty and don’t want to cross certain lines anymore. He said he respects that and even offered that if we ever met, it would just be as friends over coffee.

Part of me feels like this is real and rare. Another part of me feels like I’m setting myself up to be hurt.

I don’t even know what I’m looking for. I just needed to say this somewhere because I feel confused and conflicted.