Nightmare on withdrawal,serious mental psychosis appears

God. Tried off for 24h. You have on my profile how long I was with on them. Not much but not small time either. I still believe not at stage where theres risk of serious physical withdrawal apart from insomnia/horrible mental states.

Intense fear and emotional pain. Brutal depression. Literal suicidal ideation. No desire to change sheets,take a shower NOTHING. Then reviewing my past and ridiculing myself(im nobody and insane) ,something is wrong with me..nobody ever loved me etc. basically going competely batshit insane in mind while externally my body nor mind are interested in anything and no peace.

I popped 0.5 after nearly 24h and all fear escaped.

AND THE FEAR. I would look at war and be like oh my god😲😲this world is awfull i need to die. Then emotional thinking.. mom I love you (the fuck she was always so distant and sober me never felt shit for her and was fine!)

Then I think about death,I start basically to criticize life and why it’s reasonable to die (this is a hell realm,realm of sickness etc).

I keep saying I need my mom I need my dad. Im TALKING BATSHIT INSANE THINKING DUDE I START TO FEEL LIKE IM 7 again traumatised.IM FKING 24 IN MARCH.

BASICALLY ONE BIG BAD ACID TRIP.

The solution: put on a paper while stable and high (withdrawal will completely destroy your reality,ignore it and ride it out.) then literally Bravo Six,Going dark it lmao

Theres no other way. I had 2 failed attempts for and it’s so stupid everytime I popped some back im back to my old self and im like alright let’s go. Shower,food,positive mindset. Scary stuff.