21 m from india

I have no friends and in India today is Holi the festival of colours but from morning I haven't touched the colour and no one has wished me Holi also I have 0 social interaction because of I am introvert so it's hard to make friends I am trying here to make some friends.. and I am 1st born and I haven't felt loved from my parents also I don't know whether they love me or not but I have noticed that my younger brother gets everything which he wants and it's totally opposite for me ...