I have no one I can have those deep conversations with

And it's my fault. I lost the one I could talk to about anything. And I'm running out of time. "It's not the future I fear, it's time" I know he's here. I feel him. I told him mostly how I felt. My theories on what that pull is that I feel... The single point of failure is if he doesn't feel the pull too. It's like gravity. I thought it was magnetism.... but we're not polar opposites. I love him. And although the probability of future that includes.... Is probably small.... There's not a single timeline I wouldn't want him in my life. And if time runs out... I'll just carry him with me. Silently. In my heart. For eternity.