22m messy life

hi, I'm 22m I'm from Canada I recently experienced a loss in my immediate family. I have very few friends but I think I need more because they have way too much impact on my emotions (very negative impact rn). I like rock music (grunge, emo, alternative), David Lynch movies (I'm not pretentious i just like the vibes) and surreal horror games (Omori, Ena, Yume Nikki, ZATO) and some other indie game that aren't really horror (Deltarune, Celeste). I play bass guitar, and make pixel art.