Over my head?? - Warning - a little gross...

I've just found this group and I love it.

I don't really know if I'm owned but Ive been seeing the same pro-dominatrix frequently for about 3-4 years. I guess if she told me that I am her property now I would say "Yes Mistress" but for now the relationship is just professional. Im also 64 and shes 29 which makes it extra hot because i love the dynamic of an old naked loser at the feet of a beautiful Queen.

Lately she's been consistently pushing my limits (in a good way) and Im always so eager to please so im happy to try new things - extreme whipping, needles, hard cbt to the point of tears. The problem is that I get so turned on that I don't think I have anything i won't do anymore. I used to have lines i wouldn't cross but now shes 100% in control and I think i might be losing myself a little which doesnt feel so bad tbh but maybe im in over my head. I've heard people call it sub-frenzy but its been going on for a while.

I worry that im on a road where ill never be satisfied and always want more. For example I used to be hesitant to get pegged but now i take whatever she gives. Last month she tied up my hands and feet to a ceiling hook and gave me a milk enema, then put a hose in my ass and stuck the other end in my mouth and made me drink the milk from my own asshole which she found immensely amusing. Past me would never have done this but now i want more. All she had to say was "good boy" and i would have done pretty much anything. Plus shes beautiful and has the best smile and laugh. For her birthday in 2 months im actually considering getting a tattoo on my balls - im impotent so i wont be getting action anyway tho...

In short I feel like im just getting more and more extreme and i worry ill always be chasing novelty forever. I just get so much joy from seeing her smile.