i cant stop binging

im 16 and im fucking insanely overweight for my age and height i actually feel sick to my stomach thinking of how everyone must think about me. i dont have a job yet so i just feel like my mom does nothing but waste money on me because i just cant stop fucking eating. i just want to stop. i feel so sick with myself all the time im so ashamed of myself. im too embarrassed to get help, too , so thats making it worse. when i first started developing bed i told my mom and she just told me to have some self control. what the fuck??? i literally cant stop crying i hate myself and my life so much im only sixteen my life is so over fuck me