Things to do before I kill myself? Actual inquiry.

I'm done, I've been spending all my money. I'm going to southern California over spring break (college), and hopefully will solo Europe literally as soon as this term ends.

I don't have endless pockets, but enough to have spent like $100/day on opioids from last October through December.

I'm not doing shit that can hurt anyone and I have firm boundaries about sex work so please don't suggest that I visit a brothel. I also have never been to a strip club and don't want to.

Yes, I donate to charity, and sometimes just find homeless people to give $50 to.

No, I can't be talked out of this and no, I'm not taking anyone out with me. I am not going to rob a place or do any type of shit like that.

Thanks.