Extremely overstimulated and anxious. Day 1.

I'm struggling to type this... Let alone think about it but I'm so anxious and afraid. I've been though something like this before.

I (34 F) suffer with intense health anxiety. I've had it for a good chunk of my 20s. I've been to the doctor and hospitals many of times only to discover that my anxiety has caused me to believe something is very wrong with me because of a strange symptom looked up last week, or something health related I happened to see on accident. Becoming extremely hyper aware of anything going on in my body always has my nervous system on high alert.

I'm a creative person, I do art and make music. At first being high felt great and even enhanced my abilities it felt like. I began using edibles more often because it helped me write my next song or create something I'm super proud of even to this day. (Though I have that nagging thought that I'll never reach that height with my skills ever again.) It's even helped me in the bedroom. Which I feel became my biggest problem and the cause for addiction.

I find myself getting overwhelmed by simply being. All it took was one really bad high and it's made me so anxious and paranoid ever since.

I'd like to think that I wasn't using it to mask anxiety but maybe I have. I fell into the habit of using it to self pleasure and now it's becoming too much. I feel like the self pleasure part is making things a whole lot worse. I didn't wanna quit cold turkey so I started "micro dosing" I'd even chop up an edible into tiny bite sized pieces in hopes that'll help me. After a really bad high last year I took a break for about 9 months. Only to start using it again and 3 weeks later I'm right back to feeling awful. It's been about 24 hours since I last had the tiny piece of the edible and I still feel awful. Especially in my stomach. Everything is such a chore and I'm overstimulated so easily, I barely have an appetite. Sometimes I feel like I can't move properly or I'm clumsy.

I know it's gonna take some time for me to recover but my god does this suck.

Has anyone else ever done what I have? How did you recover?