A few days after I was threatened to be blocked for not giving her the reaction and comment she was looking for. She messaged me saying hope I was having a lovely day which was great. I love friendly people, and then 10 minutes after that it went so south. Again she posted another picture where she was not getting the reactions she wanted and felt the need to message me about it.  Half of this won’t be in the manifesto they created because well, it’s not a good look. All they uploaded was my responses but nothing that lead to those responses. Which is omission and lying. Again I had felt like I didn’t do enough. Especially since she came to me personally to talk about it. She even mentions my comment that almost got me blocked again saying she still felt negative about me over it I guess because the comment on the new picture still was not what she wanted. I felt upset by that so I put a couple comments on her posts to idk maybe make her feel better? I don’t know man I was just trying to be kind spirited and supportive because I personally did not want to have this conversation again, and I clearly already noticed she was treating me different which was fine. I said I had respected it. But I wasn’t going to say I didn’t notice it either because you literally just hit my DM’s to tell me about not getting the exact attention you wanted. You know I am a human being with human emotions right? And you clearly noticed that you can mess with mine very easily so you did exactly that, knowing I’d do a lot to not lose something I valued. This was also when I started to save my screenshots. I knew this wasn’t right. And this conversation is also again, omitted. The responses you see from patreon are the only ones there describing this account. To paint me to look like I’m crazy for sending many messages for no reason. No there’s always a reason. 

Then the very next night, or should I say a few hours later, she goes live. Takes her break. I tell the chat to have a goodnight and a great day, the usual goodbye message because it was late and I was tired. I’m allowed to sleep right? So why did she feel the need to message me? AGAIN? I understand to tell me goodnight but do you not understand how that makes me feel guilty? Also a few days ago you were telling me NOT to be pervy or anything. So why would I be pervy in your streams? I thought I never listened to the things you told me to do? And I want to mention, that this conversation? This is also omitted from that google document. Only the part where I ask if she’s mad at me is there to make it seem like I was crazy sending too many messages and not getting a response. Even though SHE was the one who messaged ME in this instance. And no, this does not get any better from here. There were times it was good but most of the time. This is what was happening. I admit to sending a lot of messages and you’ll see that when I get to it. But if I’m constantly being made to feel like I’m not doing enough? Im absolutely going to try harder if that is how you see me in your eyes. I’m sorry I took notice to things that made you upset after you discussed it with me and I did what I thought I could do just to be positive. You know. What people who listen to others would do.

PekeASMR Dec3-Dec4