i will always be sad no matter what

wish i could turn off my brain. i feel trapped, and i have been feeling like this for so long. Literally, I am so fucked omg. and no one gets it, i am utterly alone, not a single person. and everyone says that its not true. but yet no one was able to disprove it, because no one actually gets it. i am genuinely starting to believe that out of 8 billion people i am alone to be like this. i hate my mind. i hate it sm. i want to shoot myself sm. i want to just end it. every single day is pain. and the world just makes it worse. theres no place for me to be happy. nothing can help me. i am so angry. i am so sad. i am so alone