Day 2.

I have tried and relapsed several times, this time I think I've figured out what works, but that doesn't mean its gonna be easy, its still a tough road ahead. So what I think the ultimate truth is and what I must constantly believe in to continue to abstain is the belief that it is not who I truly am, and its NOT a real solution, it won't give me anything except harm. I must fight against my conditioned brain, conditioned to think I depend on it as some sort of relief but that is false and the thoughts that tell me its a solution and I should get it over with are only deception due to delusion.

Being aware at all times, thinking about what ever I wrote above and being critical of my own self and developing on these thoughts helps.