Anyone dislike themselves in dresses or traditional wear?

Not a hate to dress or any traditional wear. On any other girls, they look so beautiful, infact i love girls so really anything anyone wears will always look beautiful.

But for me, whenever i have to wear dresses or traditional clothes, i start having a mental and emotional breakdown, and heavy feeling of self harm. I don't like seeing myself as feminine, well i do like the idea, but seeing myself actually in them, makes me feel ugly, or maybe it's just anxiety, idek.

Shit sucks,idek why i can't do that, it's just either shame or just idk body dysphoria. I mostly do wish i was just born a guy haha

And it sucks even more because literally NOBODY in my lfe or around me can relate, they're all super mentally sane and can embrace themselves. I'm the only odd one out for some reason and it sucks, especially during festivals where i just want to disappear.

Rant because why not 😝😝🎀

Happy election everyone or something like that