Senioritis got me 😞

I was already so locked out last semester, but I at least still had the decency to freak out if I got something below a 90. I ended the semester with a 96ish average. Basically for all of high school my averages have been mid-high 90s, and I only got one 80 in grade 11 english. We’re month into this sem and I don’t think I’ve gotten a single 90 in anything💀 My best class rn is calc which is so insane bc I haven’t even done any of the hw and I just cram right before the tests… And I’m planning to drop the class around midterm bc I don’t need it and I’m so lazy. I just got a 75 on a paragraph we had to write for english, which is the main thing going on our midterm report. I wouldve gone home and had a breakdown if this was last year, but I looked at it and was just like “at least it’s above the 70 i need to keep my offer” IM SO COOKED HELP 😭 I have no idea how I’m getting through this semester genuinely I already accepted my offer and I was told that I don’t even need to maintain my averages to keep my scholarship so I’m doing the absolute bare minimum rn 💔