Jobless , got cats , no education , plan to end it all soon and just wanna say , i love my cats

I have been jobless for many years , i have cats who i love dearly , 2 turn 4 this year , 2 will be 3years this year , had them since they was babies

Had a job but i quit bcs of adhd , honestly i cant blame everything on my mental illness , now i regret it , im just tired of everything

Plan to spent all of my money and kill myself

Dont know what would happen to my cats , maybe my fam will take them , feel like im trap to be a slave because of my cats , part of me regret for having my babies but part of me thankful because i wouldnt be surviving this long

And honestly , who knows my cats better than me?

Am i selfish to make this decision , idk but if the plan work , hope they know i love them