Doctor Visits

Anyone else here struggle with doctors visits? My dietitian and my therapist are the only people I have trusted and know about my disordered eating. I have an appointment with a new PCP in the morning and both of them have advised me to either turn around on the scale or ask the nurse and doctor not to share my weight with me unless medically necessary. I feel too ashamed to do either and I also want to know if I’ve gained or lost weight and I’m scared if I don’t see it there and somehow later on see it in my chart I will spiral anyway. Any advice or anyone also dealing with this?