Is having a second child worth it?

My husband and I live far away from family. His are an hour away but there’s no women except my 1 sis in law. We get along but we’re not besties or anything.

We have a 5 month old son who I love so much but I had severe postpartum D, and anxiety. I’m on medication for it now.

I come from a culture where everyone has a village and have a lot of kids. So they have a lot of help and people surrounding them to make them feel less alone. And their kids all have friends cousins and siblings.

I do plan to make a strong effort to build a community and I’ve started to plant those seeds,

My problem is I’m afraid of PPD, I hate sleep deprivation so much, I love taking my time doing things, i like spending an entire day on 1 thing which I can’t do now

with a baby. I miss having time for myself and my hobbies and I wish I can build something for myself one day.

But the guilt of leaving my baby as an only child eats me alive. Also afraid of feeling lonely in the future.

But I also always count down milestones waiting for things to get easier and I’m afraid if I have 2 I’ll sink. But I’m also afraid I’ll regret it.

I any opinions