I’m so unhappy

I try so much everyday to find fun and joy and peace but it’s not working. I still close myself off to friends or making any rly bc I do have people I like and like me in my life it’s hard to accept I need to reach out tho lol. Also got off 3 antidepressants / mood stabilizer, (they made my ocd really bad). I really have no idea what to do except bide time till my brains normal again