Life feels impossible since these mistakes could use advice

In short im 22 and and i have fucked up so fucking bad in the last couple years. First i accidentally masturbated to someone who said they were 18 in a video when they were really just about to turn 17 in the video and i was like 19 at time. I thought i got unlucky and stupidly masturbated to the person again once they were 18 and i was like 20. Its also possible i masturbated to them when i was 20 and they were about to be 17 and i still decided i just got unlucky and made a way worse mistake for myself. Next i accidentally masturbated to someone who was 16 that i thought was 18 based on the way they were posting and captioning post when i was 21. I knew it was risky and made a brainless decision. This only happened once and i realized i fucked up months later and obviously this time i never went back. Lastly i masturbated to people who made onlyfans type content or just posted thirst trap content in general while on tiktok lives. I have made some pther mistakes but these are the ones I cant get myself to live with and are def way worse. How do i genuinely move on with my life? I barely feel like i deserve to even live at this point i never intended to be a creep but my decision making was fucking piss poor and now i can’t get this out of my head. Ive genuinely been thinking about this shit non stop for a year. Any advice would help.