Strength leaving

I pulled the plug on my relationship yesterday after I caught my alcoholic boyfriend drinking again. He promised me to go sober, I even bought him a 200$ bottle of cologne to celebrate. He hasn’t apologized and has made excuses for himself saying it doesn’t affect me. He has gotten drunk and almost killed me in the car, he’s publicly screamed at me to the point strangers were calling the cops, he’s threatened to hit me and he’s called me a retard, autistic, bitch etc. so when I saw those bottles again I decided to give up. I miss him so much but I am never going to be with him again. I am done. I’m just in so much pain I just want things to be different. I was with him for 10 years. I made a commitment to my family that I wouldn’t ever be with him again. I am just so sad. It’s been one day and I’m already asking him to see the dog and I just want strength to stay away. Any advice to stay away from the manipulation would really help. I am excited to one day find a love that isn’t so toxic and scary