Losing virginity experience

It was with this guy that I was really attracted to but the thing was, whenever I tried to talk to him I had the sense that he didn’t get me, my humor, or my vibe honestly. He had a personality but it didn’t seem to match with mine in the sense that not a lot of laughter was happening the first time we hung out. So I kinda had categorized him in my head as someone who wasn’t a relationship candidate.

After a while of talking he kissed me and I was kinda happy that we could just listen to music and make out and not have the pressure of having to have a conversation. Well we made out and he asked to crack and I was like no I’m not ready for that. Honestly I feel like I was ready and would’ve been down but I didn’t want to come off as easy.

So after that link we really didn’t talk much because I didn’t see a point but about a month later he started texting me again. At some point we were texting and it was late and he started talking about how he liked that I was tall and sexy and he said something about wanting to climb me 💀.

But anyway so we linked again and I knew I was getting cracked, I had thought about it a lot and I just wanted to see what was up. And I trusted this guy for some reason, he didn’t seem like a kind of insecure guy who would tell all his friends. It was 100% more of a personal decision than male validation. So anyway we were making out and then he asked me to suck his dick and I did and after like 1 min he pulled me in for a kiss and then he asked he if I wanted to have sex and I told him yes and then we did. Honestly it didn’t hurt much at all, honestly it felt pretty mid. I remember thinking wow this is really it. He was about 6-7 inches and he seemed like he knew what he was doing. I couldn’t really feel that much though, I was lowkey just thinking about making moaning noises. I was definitely faking it. After a few mins he started going faster and harder, and he told me he was gonna finish and then he did. After he got off me and check the condom and that was kinda it. He got me food after and drove me home. I obviously didn’t finish. Part of me wishes that I asked him to give me head or something for my pleasure but overall I think I had a mid/slightly positive experience. It’s not like I wanted to stop but it didn’t feel like fireworks or really anything special. This wasn’t long ago so he’s still my only body, I wish that my experience would have been with someone who made it more about me I guess? Anyway we started texting again and we might link next week so I’ll update if I get head 💆🏼‍♀️💆🏼‍♀️💯💯