I don’t remember the last time I slept through the night.

If it’s not my bladder waking me up, it’s my brain working overtime. I think. I start worrying. I plan. Am I out of milk, did I forget to do something today? Did I pay this bill? It’s making me crazy. I even take Ambien sleeping pills which help me fall asleep but I don’t sleep more than a few hours…3-4 at most. I’m always tired by 7-8pm, try and go to bed between 9:30 and 10pm, and I’m up at 12:30am-2am. And that’s it for that night’s sleep. I think in my heart I’m addicted to my Ambien, I literally can’t sleep without it…I stay up worrying about no sleep. So when I take the Ambien I have maybe 10 minutes of clear thought and then I’m asleep for 2-3 hours then wide awake. I’m in a state that marijuana is illegal so I haven’t tried that. I don’t drink. I just wonder what it would be like, how I would feel, to sleep 8hours! I can’t be the only one! Any anecdotes of how you get sleep without marijuana? (And yes, I’ve tried “natural” stuff like melatonin and it doesn’t work for me. Makes me tired, but no sleep comes of it.)