Can’t live without him

He’s barely been answering me. The only time I can breathe without him Is when I’m taking medicine for my anxiety, I have to take It all the time. It’s one of those medicines that work Instantly. But as soon as that wears off I’m about to have a panic attack because most of the day I don’t hear from him. He said we would talk today, but now he’s saying he still needs more time. I just feel like I’m little again at my Mom’s door begging for her to forgive me. He’s going through so much, and I’m adding to It so It’s better If we just don’t talk anymore. Idk what to do, I’m panicking because he’s not answering right now. I need him.