HH STOLE MY LIFE! Bit of a rant and a s/o to my fam here

Im 25 been dealing with HH since I was 12. It all started as an anxiety response originally and I was super socially inept so I obviously noticed I didn’t fit in and that would make me anxious. Despite all that ended up being a very social person, obviously had a preference for fist bumps even if it was into an open palm bc I got sick of the conversations about my palms (sure a few of you relate to that ) and is especially annoying when I even feel I’m confident in situations internally as well.

Biggest onset however for full body HH has to have been cptsd and living in a steam box. It’s ruined my life. I live in Australia and here it is always sunny and hot… so for Atleast 4 months of the year, going outside feels like im litterally in a waking hell. Im yet to meet another with HH irl so I am unsure how the sensation of sweat feels for you, but for me it presents itself as full blown body sweats head to toe. Everything drenched, and feeling so unbelievably drained . It’s like the heat you feel when your slightly embarrassed or boss calls you into the office but times that by a million and that’s what it’s like for me to sit on a Train here, walk to the shops, or get into venues without a medical certificate explaining im not on drugs . it’s actually so unbearable .

And if you experience the body heat sensation as well where it seems nothing can cool you down, you’ll know how hard it is to deal with the relationships around you. Being there for loved ones , still providing , it’s insane.

Well all of this came to a tipping point and I am now officially burnt out . Done . Kapeesh. Vinito. Haven’t seen friends or gone to work in almost 3 months and I am trying to recoup my energy and Bassically stay in a kind of hibernation till it gets cool enough for me to live again.

It sucks because I am someone who has a lot of passion for life, I love seeing the world and feeling the breeze , and I just feel like my only way to live and not pass out daily is just to lie here doing mindfulness and meditation infront of my fan and doing the least as possible.

Massive s/o if u read my random woe me rant really appreciate this reddit so much and makes me feel so much less alone .