This disorder makes me feel so stupid

I’m turning 29 next week and it still gets to me that I’m dealing with this, it makes me feel like a child in an adult body with no way to grow up. Like, how do you explain shuddering over food texture in restaurants with friends? It’s just so, so dumb and I’m so over it. Hats off to you if you relate, I’m having a time of it and just wanted to get it off my chest.