Doctors (potentially triggering)

So basically my mom loves to tell me that I don’t need medical attention when I do. My phyciatrist basically forced her to get my hormones checked because since starting testosterone I’ve been very depressed. My mom only does things to help me when she thinks she’ll get in trouble if she doesn’t. I have a UTI and have peed myself a few times in the past year or so which is not normal for someone my age and it is causing me significant distress. The issue is, I’m an adult but certain disabilities I struggle with have made it impossible for me to get a job. This means that I can’t afford a copay and my mom has refused to give me my own insurance information so I literally can’t just go get my own appointment. My mom says “oh maybe I’ll get you a therapist” or ”maybe I’ll get you that info just remind me” but when I remind her I’m somehow in the wrong. I also have misophonia and every time I mention it my mom goes “what is that?” as if she’s never heard of it in her life. Instead of being understanding she slurps everything, food that you should not be able to slurp. She used to attend therapy sessions with me but she decided she didn’t like feeling like a “bad mom” even though that’s what she was. She’s alergic to accountability and I just want to get as far away from her as possible. The worst part is that everyone loves her because she only treats me this way so openly. Even my own sisters sometimes don’t believe me when I say she’s done or said certain things. My parents were investigated by CPS for physical and verbal abuse aswell as neglect and still claim I don’t have trauma and it’s wrong for me to say I have PTSD even though I do because I don’t have any real trauma and people have it worse than me. I almost ran away from home many times and of course I’m glad I didn’t but sometimes I wish I did I honestly just wish there was a way I could be independent but the truth is I miss the mom I never had and all I want is to be loved and taken care of. The hardest part is the fact that I know my mom wouldn’t get me help even if I needed it right now, I had a therapist when I was younger who twice said I needed to go to the ER to get checked out for my mental health and instead I was brought home. I was only brought to the ER when a friends parent reached out in the middle of the night and when my sister said that she would take me if nobody else did.