unclean

i just can't stop sobbing. everything in my room feels disgusting, and no matter how much i scrub things down, i don't think i'll ever be clean. i've been crying for so long. i don't even feel safe, nor comfortable in my room anymore, and i have no idea what to do. i've probably spent around 40 minutes wiping my things down

i can't stop thinking about how disgusting i am and how everything in here needs to be thoroughly cleaned, i just want to feel clean. i've probably cried for around 2 hours today about this, i just don't know what to do. i feel like i can't touch anything without making it disgusting??? i don't even want to sleep in my bed at this point, but i'm so tired