Turned 30 but jobless, uneducated and just lack overall life direction purpose

can anyone give me some advice or just direction what to do with my life. Im not looking for sympathy. i would rather hear the bitter truth that would open my eyes but umm sighs I don't know what to do.

I'm 30 living abroad since the age of 9. I witnessed both parents passing away whom they never saw the goodness of life like other parents. I know I cannot sit and be sad forever about the past and continue remorsing. but like I just don't know what to do everyday. I continue living my life in isolation doing nothing all day besides watching YouTube, spending time on social media apps and doing few chores like cleaning and bit of cooking. but as a man, I'm living my life behind a curtain that many times I don't feel like a man simply because I'm not earning money, I don't have education or skills and overall feel like some adult-child. I know deep down my solutions but I don't understand why am I not taking actions. like I know I just need to start small and do something instead of overthinking. and nothing will happen unless I do something.