Think this is the best option for me? Any thoughts are welcomed

For about a year now I’ve been feeling very lonely, nobody seems to give me the time of day when they would for others. I decided to go thru my socials and remove anyone that I felt I didn’t have a connection to anymore. One of them being a very close friend. He then messaged me back about 2 hours after doing so asking what happened. Note he rarely reached out anymore so it was weird

I think I’m at my limit of staying and trying to fix things. I ended up sending this to him

I removed* (not blocked) an handful of people I no longer feel connected to and am still doing so, I’m not asking for apologies or sympathy I’m doing this for myself. Since we haven’t caught up in a while I’ll give you a rundown on whats been going on. Recently I’ve been slowly remembering my dreams again and it’s been amazing (other than dreaming about things I would rather not dream about) but again, it’s been great!

A few days ago I had a panic attack, felt like I was actually going to go insane for a sec but I caught my thoughts before they went rampant (thought about sending myself to therapy but I also don’t believe in therapy) why it happened? I was thinking about my past, about how everyone ends up pushing me away, hating me, leaving me, etc. and I sat with overflowing negative thoughts about myself so yeah.

I am not doing this to be petty and to be frank my mindset has completely changed from the guy that cared deeply about other peoples feelings. I could care less if you or anyone else thinks I’m being petty. The day I realized nobody has reached out to me to ask to run games, hangout, chill on call or even text was the day I realized everyone truly walks this earth alone.

If you feel a certain way about me after this, that is understandable and I’ll have to just accept that fact but from now on. I Walk Alone