My girlfriend finally apologized for what she did, but I'm guilty of a lot of things myself.

I am 34M and shes 32F. I will start with a timeline. This story has a lot going on so I feel it is necessary.

Early 2022 - I lose my virginity at 29, to a woman who cheats on me a lot. She'd even go on vacations with other men as I paid all the bills. I left her shortly after, I hated her after that.

Late 2022 - I get back with her after being unable to find anyone else, but because of what happened I didn't intend to stay long. She starts doing the same shit she did before.

All 2023 and most of 2024 - She keeps cheating, mocking me with her friends, going on vacations with other guys and I became an outright laughingstock. But, I wasn't gonna stay forever.

Late 2024 - She finally stops being that way, though even now people make fun of me for "putting up with it." I assume I can satisfy her now and begin monkey-branching.

All of 2025 - I keep looking for new women, no luck at all. She has fully stopped.

Now - She apologizes profusely for her past behavior, asking how I could forgive her. She is clearly oblivious to the fact that I STILL have no desire to stick around with her. I am just in it for whatever experience I can get. Even if it meant getting made fun of for some time.

I am lost now, I am not sure how I can tell her I've been using her. I didn't think she'd ever feel bad, and I'm not sure I still wanna be with her after what she did for two years.